Today, I realized that it’s only been about a month since my teacher stopped
confusing me with the other two Asian girls in my class. They’re Chinese. I’m
a tan Filipino. MLIAsian
last year, i always got yelled at for sleeping…i just have small eyes. this
year i can sleep all i want and my teacher, the same one from last year, thinks
i’m awake
Today I come home and check my e-mail to see my friend, who doesn’t talk to me
anymore, sent me a message on Facebook. I was really excited to reconnect, so I
log on to see her message…referring me to this site.
I was eating dinner with my friend who just started this semester as an
international student from China, they asked if he and I were related, i grew up
in a town about an hour away from the university.
even though i am white, i still feel like MLIAsian:
my dad is obsessive about my grades, i’m in all advanced classes,
i’m such a horrible driver that it took me 6 tries to get my license,
i’m resentful of my parents because they never let me have piano or
violin lessons, i’m sad i’m going to a state school and not
ivy league like my asian friends because there’ll be so many white
people there and not enough asians, my eyes are squinty in all of my pictures
because the flash makes me blink, and i do whatever my parents tell me to
without a fuss.